Coffee Princess

madami pa sana akong gustong sabihin eh, kaso ang hirap ng itype ng lahat ng nararamdaman ko… mas gusto ko sana kung makakausap kita, sana man lang bigyan mo ako ng pagkakataong umimik at pakinggan mo din naman ako sana… i love you so much bes, please don’t ever think of leaving me… :(

i love you best friend so much, sometimes i just wish you would learn to listen first

kaya hindi ako makamove sa yeobo ko, dahil ung mga panahon na yun lang ako nakaramdam ng lahat ng positive sa mundo, i was always happy from sunrise to sundown, i was always inspired, i felt secured and soo much loved, i felt a sense of worth too… ibang klase talaga ang pakiramdam ko noon, at alam kong hindi na ung maibabalik pa…

sana bago ka magalit sakin. maisip mo man lang kung may dapat kang ikagalit, best friend kita kaya minsan ituring mo din akong best friend, tao din lang naman ako at nsasaktan din

nasaan nga ba ang best friend ko pag kailangan ko. sana naman mga minsan matuto kang makinig sa akin bago ka magalit.

always on the verge of a breakdown

i miss everything we once had

i miss my yeobo

i miss her so much. :<

i miss how she would always make me feel so loved and blessed,

how she would always show her concern,

i miss how she would always understand me

especially when i can’t grant her requests

i miss how she would never forget to text me good morning and good night

how she would always remind me to eat

and always ask how i’m doing from time to time

i miss how sweet she was always to me

i miss how happy we always were

i miss how she would never get mad at me for little things

and how she would always laugh whenever its just us two

when we were together i’m always happy,

and i’m always happy even if we’re just texting each other

when i’m beside her i feel so secured and so much loved

i go to sleep happy and wake up inspired by her

she always gives me the motivation to strive for the best

i miss how she used to hug me when i’m down

and how she would make me smile without much effort.

i have never felt so much loved like this when there was us

now there’s no more us

i feel like my world has gone down

no one ever loved me like you do

and now i feel so incomplete without you

you’re the only one that i will love like this.

just you and only you..

i miss you s much yeobo.

where were you’re promises when we parted,

i’m trying to see them but sometimes i get so clouded

and you’re intentions cme unclear

but nevertheless i will always hope that one even when we’re not together, some pieces of you would’ve been left in your old body… the body that i first met before you became my yeobo.

i miss you so much yeobo.

please guide me again.

i feel so emotionally lost.

i just wanna feel loved by you again even just a bit

ease my pain like yu did before,

don’t make it any worse please… :<

maybe teaching isn’t my line

idk. ayaw kong magsalita ng tapos, but i haven’t really felt that joy in teaching like others have… but we’ll see baka magbago din isip ko in time, but for the mean time i’ll observe what will happen… but if after a year i feel like i haven’t fulfilled much, i’d say that mayybe teaching isn’t really my line of work, and i should find something else.

i know she loves me more than she shows…

#strongly believing

#thinking positive

feeling ko ba lahat na lang ng bagay kahit gaano ko kagusto kahit pagsikapan ko, kahit gaano kadaming effort ang gawin ko, hinding hindi pa rin mapupunta talaga sa akin, lagi na lang mag hadlang.

I’m trying to be happy, but some of the times, i just can’t be happy and end up being hateful again. Ayaw q lang na pakiramdam ng nawawalan. :(

Ganun ba ako kahateful? lahat na lang ng bagay na gusto ko pansamantala q lang makukuha, papasayahin lang ako ng ilang sandali, paaasahin, tapos sa huli hindi naman pala para sa akin. kahit gaano kadaming effort at oras ang ilaan ko, wala pa rin. hindi ba ako deserving sa mga ito? please naman God, wag naman laging temporary, di ba pwedeng permanent kahit isa?

i should be happy, but i just can’t.

i’m too jealous.

ayaw kong maagawan.

ayaw kong mawalan.

i’m trying to feel positive.

even though it’s fake, at least i’m trying.. but i guess i’m not trying hard enough.

hindi naman kasi halatang nagttry ako, kaya siguro ganun.

but believe me i really am trying.

:(

Every day i remind myself that I’m only your best friend now… and what we had before will only be a good memory… but sometimes without noticing, i suddenly act like there is still us.

my actions are one of the many things i can’t control when we’re alone.

inside my mind i’ll always be secretly jealous of others who can have you.

i’ll always be jealous coz i still want to be yours.

but i can’t.

you can’t.

we can’t.

there are things i can’t say to you anymore.

everyday i want to tell you i love you. but i can’t anymore.

i want to kiss you. but i can’t anymore.

i want to hold your hand a lot. but we can’t anymore.

i want to hug you so tight every night. but we can’t anymore.

everything is limited now.

i try to forget a little about these limitations in order to not be hurt. but i can’t.

coz i always know i can’t.. anymore…

everything, and everywhere reminds me of you…

we had so much fun together before… and much more fun when “we” happened.

too much precious memories to forget…

i can’t forget them

i won’t forget them.

i miss you yeobo so much. :(

we we’re perfect for each other…

TOO perfect..

almost perfect, if it wasn’t for life.

if life wasn’t unfair.

we could have ended up together..

and became happy forever…. together…